Oh how I love getting close to people, living community style - why is it so wonderful to share silly games such as this one (the "fear of falling" illusion), down time and morning coffee conversation and bathrooms and hang-ups and meals and tears and fears and waking-up moments and laughs and stupid jokes and silence and cooking and music and criticism and analysis of criticism and lightness and heaviness and closeness and fear and retreat and anger and dreams and disillusion and pain and so so so much happiness with other people? I don't know... All I know at this point is that it seems that we Nordics tend to maintain a confusion of "independence" and "loneliness"